Lexi
I found JUU!
Posts : 156
Join date : 2010-02-02
Age : 31
Location : Pennsylvania, USA
 | |  February 10, 2010 | |
So I just now as I am typing this realized my favorite holiday is 4 days away!!!!!
Anyways, my parents (step dad and mom) are fighting, well they were until the fat jerk (step dad) decided to leave because he cant stand up for himself since my moms being bad ass and bashing his personality.
Seriously, I wish mom never married him, why couldnt they of just staying living together status, since they got married its been so fucking difficult to live here, with him bitching all the time, doing nothing, I cant wait to move out and go to college. This is fucking ridiculous.
I need a job. Bad. I feel like such a financial burden on my mother, and im sick of having to take money off of her! Lunch money, spending money, but where I live NOONES HIRING!
I dont have a car, so I cant go anywhere and I dont want to depend on my parents to get me to and from work.
*sighs*
I just feel so incompetent of being an almost adult.
I just want to curl up and cry sometimes, because I feel so worthless to my parents, and I take them for granted so much, it sickens me but, I cant seem to stop sometimes. So I have decided to get my head out of my ass and go to the basement and get some cleaning down there done, and some laundry because I need to start getting things together for my dads yearly yard sale.
I need to make a wishlist for graduation party for my family, and for my own needs
Also making a forum and designing it is fucking difficult I mean seriously, making the buttons and shit ughhhh its hard work.
BLAH!
Oh yeah I forgot to mention, snow is on the ground No school today, better not be any tomorrow or else. So this gives me.... a 6 day weekend HUZZAH!
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Yesterday was nice, Danny came over to spend the day with me we tickle wrestled and it was fun I lost...again.
We watched cartoons together and snuggled which felt really nice to be held considering ive been having shitty week so far, he even helped me and mom make dinner, he learned how to use a chef's knife and it was so nice.
I really am in love with him, everything he does makes me proud of him and I just....I got it good.
He is so sweet to me, like last night after he left to go home, he came online and sent me all these songs that made him think of me, like "cant take my eyes off of you" and "i love you" it was so sweet, noone has ever done that for me before and I felt....amazing. | |
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